Sometimes... As personal as personal can be.

This is my personal space.
This is where I get to come to be me.
Completely.
Fully.
Whole.
Raw.
Pure.

Often times it isn't safe to do so in real life.
But here... Here I can be anything.
I can do anything.
I can feel everything.

Born emotional
Excitable.
Relateable.
At times maybe I'm not so reliable.
But I try.

I'm only human.
I'm here to make mistakes.
My purpose here is to LIVE.
My lessons are to be learned.

I've been lost, I have found.
I've been sleeping.
I've been missing.
I've been fleeing.

Yet, here I am.
Not so far from where I began
But I'm lightyears away from where I used to be.
Have I given up the drive to see?

I don't think so.

My eyes are open.
My mind is flowing.
My heart is racing.
This life, I'm facing.

Head on.
Head Strong.
Hum along to my song.

This is for you.
Any of you.
Does it speak to you?
Will it save you?

If I reach one person
Save them from life
Or death
Then I've done my job.

That's what I'm here for.
To help you up off the floor.
You're so much better than this.
Never forget this.

It never lasts forever.
Unless you let it.
Don't let it.

You can get past this

If you try
You can get past this


Keep moving forward.
One foot in front of the other
What is your reality?
Is it your favorite movie scene?

What makes your heart race?
Your blood flow...
Do you even know?

Slow it down
Take it on
Live it up

You are where you want to be.
Woe is me mentality
BREATHE

BELIEVE

ACHIEVE

BREATHE

BELIEVE

SUCCEED

The Struggle Continues... Or does it?

I don't know how this is for other people, but I STRUGGLE sometimes! Crazy, right?! Yeah... Well, as I stated in my original blog, I become a coach the same time I began my own personal journey. I'm working on my own health and fitness. And sometimes, I have a really hard time giving myself credit for how far I've come! So many of us are all about the instant gratification. We want to feel good, look good, be good, RIGHT NOW.

Truth is, you have to WORK for things in life. Unless you're the rare freak of nature that can pick up any instrument and play like you've been doing it your whole life. But let's face it... That is rare! Right?

Just because I've begun eating better and working out doesn't mean I'm going to have the body I've been striving for over night. I get to WORK MY BUTT OFF for it. See how I said I GET to? That is KEY. Using the word GET takes out the HAVE to. No one likes HAVE to. Or SUPPOSED to. You GET to. :)

Anyway-
We went up the canyon yesterday with family. LOTS of fun. I love how much my family has been able to overcome and heal the past so that we can be close like we are today.

I love my family

When looking at these pictures, I found myself being pretty harsh about how I look. I was having feelings and thoughts that are SO toxic!! I reached out for support from my challenge group that I'm currently a part of. They reminded me to look at what I've been doing, how far I have come, and to stop beating myself up.

This is SO important! Men and women both are SO critical of their appearances. I can't speak on behalf of men, because I'm not one. ;)
But I feel like I can speak on behalf of many women. STOP BEING SO HARD ON YOURSELF! If you are feeling unhappy with how you are feeling, the weight that you've put on (or the weight you can't seem to put on), then look at what you can do to help yourself FEEL amazing. And in the meantime, stop beating yourself up!

Rather then picking apart the things that you DON'T like, focus on what you DO like. Begin to fall in love with yourself. IT'S OKAY to do that ya know.

Remember your dream through the struggle. You will begin to find strength you didn't know you had. A strength that will keep you going when times get tough.

You are capable of SO much!! Stop holding back. GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!! Do the things that you've been saying you can't do. BECAUSE I BET YOU THAT YOU CAN.

Love yourself through the journey. Always.

-c

Welcome to my BLOG! 

This is my first entry. I used to blog often many years ago. But as I had kids and some really tough times in my life...and was without a computer.... I stopped. But I am back and ready to rock this!!

I have begun such an AMAZING journey. I had been following this page for a year called Forward Fitness. I'm not even sure how I came across this page. I'm pretty sure that one or some of my friends had shared quotes and what not from this page and I LOVED what I was seeing.  

At some point I was contacted by Brigitte Linford (or maybe I contacted her, I honestly can't remember...)

Her story hit home with me. She battled with depression for most of her life. To the point that she'd become suicidal. She was on medications. At one point she ended up checking herself into a mental hospital. 

Anyway-
I really connected with her. And as I learned more about what she did (she is the founder of Forward Fitness by the way), and what she was about, I knew that I wanted to become a part of it. 

I didn't know how I was going to do such a thing though. I am the financial provider for my family. My significant other has an auto-immune disease that has significantly impacted his life. During that time, I wasn't making enough to pay our bills, let alone put money to ANYTHING additional. 

So, time went on. Brigitte kept in contact with me. Answered questions, offered advice, suggestions, etc. 

This year, around March or so, I had a light bulb click on in my head. My Dad had always told my sister and me that if we wanted to go to school, he'd do what he could to help us. Well, I really had no interest in going to school again. At all. BUT, I'd found this thing that I wanted to do. I wanted to be a health and fitness coach. I wanted to join Brigitte and have her as my coach/mentor. 

SO... I had a proposition for my Dad. I was going to ask him if he'd support me in getting a coaching business up and going. I brought it up to him, he was apprehensive. And rightly so! I was kind of infamous for starting and stopping things in my life. He told me he wanted to see some kind of commitment from me. So, I began eating better. I began doing things like the random push ups and sit ups. I was picking small things and doing them consistently. 

So, a few weeks later, I went back to him. STILL passionate and determined to be a coach. 

He did it. He got me started!! I will be forever grateful for this. My parents have been a ROCK for me. And not everyone has that. He made it possible for me to become a coach. For me to get my body rocking on Shakeology. And for my home fitness workout program (I went with P90X3. AMAZING by the way). 

I was OFFICIALLY a coach beginning May 20th, 2014!!! I couldn't believe it!! I was so out of shape and did NOT feel worthy of being a coach. BUT, I KNEW that this is what I want to do. THIS was my CALLING. 

And, here I am!! I'm a month in with drinking Shakeology (officially a month today, actually!), I'm on my second round of the Block 1 workout with P90X3. I'm also participating in a 21 day challenge group!! The Challenge Group has helped to hold me accountable, to keep me on track (mostly) with healthy eating, and to overall just be a great support system. 

Guess what else? My Dad was my first Shakeology Customer. AND, over the weekend, he bought a laptop so that I can run my business efficiently. How freaking awesome is that?!

So, here I am!! I decided to take life on. I decided to take my life back. And I am SO freakin STOKED to be doing what I'm doing. 

Thanks for tuning in!! Stay tuned!! There will be LOTS more to come.  :)